Getting the train in motion

I'm sort of an introvert, yes I admit. I tend to stay home a lot and just watch television while both my younger AND older siblings are out and about doing what people their age do. I wish I was more social.  My family moved to this area about two years ago and I still haven't made "those" type of friends. Ya know, those friends who you can see everyday and not get tired of it. Those friends where your family is like their family. Those friends who can just show up at your house with a five minutes notice and it's no big deal. Well, I haven't really gotten there yet but I do hope too...eventually. Until then, I'm hanging out with people. For example, tomorrow, I'm going to see After Earth with a friend of mine [We're both obsessed with Jaden Smith and his attractiveness]. By doing this I am getting myself used to being social.  With all the time I have, this summer is the perfect time to get the train moving and gain some momentum. Preferably enough momentum to stay with me during the school year. Whoops, there I go again about school.

Let's just chill out

It's weird. No matter how much I say I want to not think about school, I still do. Maybe I miss it and I don't even realize it...nah. I was just thinking about all the pressures that surround our generation, specifically what I have seen this past school year: Get into a good college, fit in, make good grades, have a nice phone. Not to mention the pressures surrounding teenage girls: be skinny, have long legs, be pretty, have a boyfriend, have perfect skin. My point is, as teenagers we tend to take things so seriously. Not to say we cannot be careless because trust me, we can. I think sometimes we need to chill out. Honestly, the things we take so seriously mean absolutely nothing when you look at the "big picture". What the big picture is varies from person to person but just remember to not take life so seriously. We're young. What's the worst thing that can happen...death and unhappiness? Well, I guess that is pretty bad.

I have become bored, can't complain

Lately, I have become bored, and I am not complaining. I remember during the toughest parts of the school year I was actually looking forward to being bored. Today marks the fourth month I have had braces...eight more months to go. Braces are a real pain. I cannot wait to get them off. Anyways, because I am bored I usually watch television and eat all day. Instead, thanks to a person on college confidential, I have become obsessed with this short story on wattpad called The Billion Dollar girl. I stayed up until 3:30 am reading it last night and I have completed it to the chapter the author last wrote. Unfortunately, the author is extremely slow when it comes to creating new chapters so I can imagine the flow of the story will be hurt if I cannot continuously read it until the end. Nevertheless, I am happy I have begun reading again. I almost forgot how much I love to read.

Goal and Progress

Summer has just begun and I am trying NOT to think about school. Instead, I look back on the previous school year and learn from it. Times are difficult in terms of money. I wasn't able to go out and shop for school clothes like most fourteen year old girls. I had to wear the clothes from eighth grade...which were getting smaller and smaller by the month. This means that the last time I went school shopping was the summer before eighth grade....2011. After having to deal with such a limited selection of clothing, it's time for a change, A NEW WARDROBE. I chose all the clothes I wanted on the internet and added up the total cost: $2,000.00. It's a stretch for a person who cannot work at most stores but I have found a solution. Yesterday, I applied for a job at Publix to either be a bagger or a floral assistant. I hope to be a floral assistant because it seems fun and less demanding compared to a bagger. Once I hit the halfway mark of $1,000.00 I will purchase half the clothing. I hope Publix gets back to me quickly, I need as many days of work as possible in order to reach my goal.  Also I must know, is anyone even reading this?

Someone I let go.

"And as I sit here on my back porch underneath a cloudless sky, a crisp slice of watermelon at hand along with a cold glass of lemonade, I think to myself: It feels like summer."

Finally it is summertime. I am away from school, but that also means I am also away from him. I'll call him David for privacy purposes. During the second semester of my freshman year I decided to join the track and field team to show that I participated in a sport for when I apply for colleges. Track, at my school, is a coed sport. In my grade there was a group of my freshman friends (girls) and the freshman boys, of whom I didn't really know. The freshman boys participate in track mostly to be better at football and they would be considered the "popular boys" of my grade. I heard they were douchebags/assholes so I had no intentions of interacting with them. But then something odd occurred. During late January I noticed one of them (same race as myself) staring at me. We both quickly looked away but it was just odd. Later there were other occurences such  as him warming up beside me, more super awkward eye contact, etc. By this time, I just thought: What is going on? Am I going crazy? David wasn't unattractive, in fact he was the exact opposite. The fact that he was cute and showing signs he was interested in me just had me paranoid. I'm not the gorgeous girl most guys he's friends with would go for plus I'm a late bloomer in the areas most fifteen year old guys actually care about. Then the track meets began and it was so cold! During one track meet, my mother brought a large thick blanket for me to stay warm. I returned from one of my events to see him and his buddies huddled underneath it. I just sat there in the cold because I wanted to avoid contact with them. Then one of his friends notices they took my blanket and invites me in their "tent". David insisted that I sit beside him...shoulder to shoulder. We didn't really talk, we were with his friends.

FASTFORWARD 2 MONTHS

By this time it is late March and the temperatures were rising. We were waiting on the track for roll call when he walks past me and throws broken up pieces from the track on my head. Just a toss, nothing rough. Of course, I was stunned by his bold choice of flirting I didn't know what to say, my mouth just dropped. Then he went to sit with his friends where they all sort of looked frantic. My guess was his friend told him to do it, he did, but according to my reaction they must've thought I was offended or angry. My friend caught onto the flirting and decided to be really obvious about it by continuously asking me out loud what was going on and urging me to flirt back. I had some broken up pieces of track in my hand but I wanted to wait before I threw it back. I finally threw it back and she noticed. It got to the point where she was so obvious I had to hand signal for her to stop. All the while him and his friends were aware of my nervousness and hand signal. It would take an idiot for someone to not think I was interested in him after what just happened. His friends teased him by saying his name, when I looked at him, he looked embarrassed as well. By this point I was pretty sure he liked me and I liked him too. Then track ended. We didn't see each other everyday anymore and barely in the hallways, yet I was still thinking about him. Then I realized I had to move on if there wasn't any progress between us. It was especially hard to do so considering he was the first person I liked and who I think liked me back. Now it is summer and I hope to forget about him temporarily.. who wants to hold onto something that isn't there anymore? And then, just recently I remembered next track season, of which we will both be participating in, it will surely be interesting.

Hi! Welcome to my world

Wow, this seems fun and exciting, a blog! My name is Bailey. (Not really, I'm not putting my real name on here) I am fourteen years old and I turn fifteen in July. I have just completed my first year of high school...being a freshman is not very fun.  I guess I created this blog to keep me occupied this summer along with A LOT of summer work. I will be discussing things such as my social life, love life, academic life, and other things. I can't wait to get this thing started!